13 Reasons Why

I just finished this book called Thirteen Reasons Why. It is about the thirteen reasons why a girl committed suicide. It was really good and got me to think about things.

No, I'm not thinking about killing myself. Figured I would throw that out there before someone freaks.

I'm pretty sure that everyone can think of at least 10 reasons why they should have killed themselves by now if they didn't have a support system. If you claim you don't have any reasons, then you are saying that because you had someone to fall back on. Imagine something really bad that happened to you. Now, imagine if you didn't have your best friend, family member, boyfriend, etc to help you through that. Would that have been one of your reasons?

I know, its all dark and emoy but its true. Since the start of 6th grade, I can list 10 reasons in my head that would have lead to my destruction. But I had a support system that helped me through those times. There are three people that have been there for me more than anyone else (there were other people as well but these three made the biggest impact) and that what this entry is about. Those three people.

Caitlin - I've only know you for two short years but in those two short years you've become my best friend. You've been there to take care of me when I've been sick both physically and emotionally. You've delt with my bitching and, most of time, understand me and what I need without me saying a word. Thank you for being there and listening to me.

Tom - We became WC friends and you refused to let go. Since my junior year, anytime I think of an issue I've had, I can remember advice you gave me. You would listen to me and give me advice no matter where you were or what you were doing. You give me the best adivce you can and listen to me complain even when I say the same thing over and over and over again. You never get upset with me or frustrated and I thank you for that.

Kt - I could go on for ages for the things you've done for me. The amount of times we've talked at random hours with just me crying and you just listening. I know I make fun of you for that card in 6th grade but in a way that saved me. We both had been dissed by multiple people and betrayed by people we thought were our friends. That card was just what I needed to know that I did have a friend. I've known you since I was 5 and we are excatly 6 months apart. We were meant to be best friends and we have remainded best friends even though we haven't gone to the same school since 8th grade. I love you and thank you for always being there for me and always offering your services to beat someone up be it a girl who is being mean to me or my boss.


I thank everyone that has given me support. There are more of you but I escpcially thank Caitlin, Tom, and Kt. You bring a simle to my face...always


~I hope you know there's nothing I could give for showing me how to live.