I Wonder....

Have you ever wondered what life would be like if you made one different decision? I'm not talking about small decisions like if you have chosen chocolate ice cream over cookie dough. I'm talking about what would have happened if you choose to go to a different college than the one you're at or chosen to say yes to a guy instead of no.

I've been thinking about these things recently which makes me wonder if there is such thing as fate. If I had chosen to go to CNU instead of DUQ would I have still found my way to Aaron? If not does that mean 1) soul mates don't exist or 2) he isn't mine. Or what would have happened if I never chosen to join the school of education? Would I have met all the awesome friends that I have now or would I still be looking for people to be friends with?

I'm most likely freaking out about nothing but yet it still bothers me. I ususally try to live by the motto don't have any regrets but I'm starting to realize that if you are human, or Catholic at least, it is impossible to not have regrets. You always have a conscience which means you feel guilty about something which means you have a regret. Although it might be guilt about something you shouldn't have done you still have regret.



I am offically talking in circles. This is what happens when I freak out. I just blab about nothing. Arg.


Life sucks

~I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it at all

Only 7 days.....

I've decided to start blogging again. I had a LiveJournal back in high school but once I got to college I just stopped.


7 days of classes. That is all I have left for the semester. I'm so glad because frankly this semester has sucked. We had to put Tigger down, Dr. Labriola died, and life has just been flat out stressful. I still have a lot of homework left and I only have 7 days of classes left. Why do professors feel the need to make everything due at the end of the semester? And then, most of them at least, don't understand why their students are tired. It is as though they have forgotten what it was like to be a student.

I feel as though my life will become less stressful once I get into the real world. Ironic but true. Yes I will have to grade papers, write lesson plans and what not but I will control the amount of work I will have to do which will be nice.

Random change of topics. Hockey would be the most boring sport if fighting and checking wasn't aloud. And Crosby checks like a girl. I just saw him try and check a Flyer and the guy barely moved. Speaking of which the Pens Flyers game is turning into a boxing match. There were just 4 penalties for fighting two of which were 5 minute major. How ridiculous. But as I said, Hockey would be much boring otherwise.

I should really get back to homework and my Chinese food

~I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair